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The thing about a sex haze, it’s can blind you and you can’t see how wrong a person can be for you when the sex is good, and no one knows that better than me.

When I went through the ending of my last situation ship I couldn’t deal with it alone anymore. I got tired of crying and my friends got tired of me crying, and me being sad over a man they felt like didn’t give a fuck about me in the first place. So tired of crying to my friends I did what I do best when in that situation I went looking for a quick fix and three weeks later I met D.G...


He was nothing like wise. But that what I needed and the sex was amazing always left me wanting more after we hooked up. And that what I needed to take my mind off of wise, my heart and soul was with wise but my body and head wasn’t. but as great as the sex was so was D.G. problems.


I was used to talking to guys with problems but D.G. took the cake. But his problems weren’t my problems, he was my haze from my broken heart. And that what I need, as my feelings grew for D.G. I didn’t know I had feelings for: D.G. or the sex. But as I tried to get close to D.G. he pushed me away. I needed to know who my feelings were for.



But 3 weeks later I got the answers. D.G. asked me to look him in his eyes since I always avoided doing so. And when I did I realized that I felt nothing for him, I was there for the sex and that it. The crazy part was when I look into his eyes I saw wise and I saw the day I knew I was in love with wise. And I was wishing shit didn’t go down like it did. But I couldn’t tell D.G. because I wasn’t ready to let go of him.


But 5 weeks later the sex haze was gone, and so was he. The feelings I thought I felt for him was gone as well, In the end it was for the best because sometimes no matter how you want to be just ‘fuck buddies’ you really can’t with some people. And I was mixing apples and oranges with a man who needed deep soul searching. And in truth my heart was too broken still kinda is, and wise still had and have a big piece of my heart.

I will miss D.G. hugs and kisses. But I truly miss that connection when the love is real, maybe one day I will have it all but I guess it’s not now
That is all

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